There are moments in our lives where we find ourselves lost in confusion and doubt. It's in these moments that you're supposed to really trust God. The problem is doing this can be a great struggle. It's like being stuck in quick sand and telling yourself to stay calm, not to move an inch, and just trust that you'll make it out alive. Or being stuck in a fog. You can't see anything around you, you have no idea where you are, or where you're going. Which direction do you go, and is it possible to find a way out? You have to trust that you're going to make it out even though you can't see what's ahead of you.
This has become my struggle. I'm sitting here thinking, "Where are we going, God? What is ahead? What is going to come from this?"
I find myself sinking in the sand, and I'm crying out and thrashing around, which is only making me sink faster. I also find myself in the fog, and I'm wondering what I should do, where I should go from here? Do I trust what's in my heart, and what voice do I follow? Which voice is God's?
I'll admit whenever things happen in my life, I tend to distance myself from God a little bit. I may be the only person who does this, but it's true. I'm done doing it though, because when I don't pray and seek Him, my circumstances, my thoughts, my struggles, they become worse. I can't do this to myself anymore. Things we don't expect happen, Satan attacks us and those around us, and it's always going to be a battle.
Ephesians 6:12 says, "For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms."
These moments where nothing makes sense, everything is going wrong, when our faith is falling apart, it's these moments we have to take hold of Jesus. There's no other answer here. There's nothing that will fix all the wrongness except Him. The brokenness, the confusion, the doubt.. It doesn't stand a chance against Him.
If there's one thing I've learned from my life, it's that He will do what He says He will do. He walks this road with us. He experiences everything with us and He knows our hearts more than we do. Whatever happens in my life, I will continue to praise Him. The whole point of this post isn't to talk about my struggles, it's to tell you that we are capable of overcoming them. Jesus already conquered everything you're dealing with. Don't allow yourself to stay in the quick sand, don't allow yourself to stay in the fog. Take His hand, He will help you through it all.
There's this line from a worship song that I love, and it goes like this, "I'm letting go.. Falling into You."
I'm striving to make this my life. I'm letting it all go, and I'm falling into You, Jesus.
Let that be your prayer today.
